Saturday, December 31, 2011

about today

About today......

Close your eyes with me. Imagine if everything you dreamed....could come true. Imagine. My dreams are coming true. Sometimes people say to just enjoy the moment. Everything happens for a reason. Fate. But I believe, sometimes, you have to fight for the dream. Fight for a person. Fight for a child. Fight for love. Fight for your passion. You can't leave everything up to fate and chance. That's lazy. That is the easy way out. It's easy to leave things in the hands of the universe. The hardest to fight. be vulnerable. 2012 for me....we will my year of dreams. Fighting.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

December 14, 2011

I don't want to leap. I would rather not know if the fire is hot. There are many things I do, knowing there will be a consequence. If I touch the fire with my hand, I will get hurt. I want to avoid any flammable objects. I am comfortable right where I am. If I leap, I don't know where I will land. On the concrete ground with brokenness throughout my entire body. Or into the safety of someone's arms. 

What if they don't want to catch me? What if they are the flammable object? What if I finally allow myself to leap? Touch the fire. And I get hurt, again. I am safe, exactly where I am. Safe from the fire, the concrete ground, and the overwhelming fear of being rejected.  I don't know if I can do it. I just don't know if I have it in me.